Lately I’ve been feeling off. Not my typical optimistic self, or necessarily seeking the good. I’ve termed it the stage of, “hitting the wall”. Or, the B ZONE.
It’s the weird floaty space of just feeling blah. At least this is what it is for me.
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I was sitting with oasis earlier today at the house, and someone asked me how I was. Immediately, I almost said, “good”. Yet, I shared how I was. That there were a lot of different feelings floating around, the pressures of squad leading, making decisions were hitting all at once, and that I needed to chill with the Lord.
It was a sweet space of getting to all talk about our process’ of sitting with the Lord and surrendering to Him. It was good and refreshing.
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We made our way into Antigua, honestly to get kombucha, and banana bread from fat cat. (It’s INCREDIBLE!)
Heather and I ran a couple of errands, and ended up in a tuk tuk. She was so excited for her first ride in one!
It hit me then. Seeing her come to life in excitement to try something new, something I had done many times before on the field, it brought me life. It brought a newness to something “old”.
You see, coming back out on the field and squad leading has been sooo good, and so worth it. There are just moments where I get weary, where I lose sight of the why.
Yet, seeing your friend get excited about something new, or seeing them step into their freedom with the Lord, IS BEAUTIFUL.
Yeah, it was a tuk tuk ride, but a NEW experience.
This short ride brought everything I was feeling before leaving the house to a pause. It released this weight I had been carrying around, and allowed me to center back in on the Lord.
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Here’s what I ponder while enjoying the kombucha and banana bread:
What I’m learning right now is, its worth it. It’s worth saying yes every day to the Lord and to the squad. It’s worth showing up to your own life and taking on the day hand in hand with the Father. It’s worth doing the same things over and over in ministry- because the kids you get to love on, the community you get to serve, you get to do it all in the name of the Father.
It’s worth taking the daily bread.
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Siempre si,
Suzie or Suze
Am so glad that you found joy ! Sometimes it is the”simple “things that bring the most joy and that we often overlook. Other times we need to sit back and look around give thanks for the surrounding beauty. Love ya!
I love your sweet heart Suze. Keep walking hand in hand with our limitless Dad, it is always worth it! He has great plans for you, just rest in Him. Love you!
beautiful words and a beautiful reminder from the father. love you pal!
mmm love this and love you
Yes yes yes. Get it Suze. Love that one moment changed your perspective and brought clarity and new life! Also PTL FOR BOOCH AND BANANA BREAD IN GUAT. Yes and amen to that!!! Love you friend! Thinking of you often!!!
Thanks for sharing, life is hard sometimes but God is always good. He gets to be something for us and in us during our blah days. Your a beautiful person Suze.
Suze!!!!
This makes me think! And ponder! The simple little things are it! The joy! The wonder! The giddiness feeling. I love you. And your joy. And what you share.
Momma Sig