When people hear about me doing the world race, the response is usually, "wow!" "this is incredible!". Which I love, but in reality, knowing that I am leaving hurts. 

It hurts to know that I will leave my family and friends for almost a year. The community I am stepping out of, the sweet relationships, the afterschool program which has stolen my heart, and countless other things the Lord has allowed me to be apart of. 

Yet, He is still good.

Yet, He is faithful.

Yet, He has never failed me. 

Yet, He continues to fill my heart with joy. 

In this season of attempting to not drown in school, graduating, and processing the COOL opportunities coming up, the Lord continues to turn my grief into joy. He has shown me how these can come together, in a way to glorify him. 

Yes, I can grieve the fact of leaving. YET HE IS STILL GOOD. It didn't make sense at first, of feeling grief but still having this indescribable joy.

In the words of my best friend Hec, "EEEEEPPP!!". That is what runs through my mind as I process through this grief, yet still having joy of just how much the Lord is pursuing me  through this season. 

So, even in our seasons of grief, whatever the grief is, set your eyes on the Lord. Allow him to take the grief, the pain, the tears, the fear, the anxiety, and instill joy that only he can give. Trust me, it's worth it.